Let's do this

I'm baaaaack!! And I'm roaring to go!!

So many changes have happened in my life, but one of the biggest is my new gym membership I got.  It's not your typical run of the mill gym.....it's an athletic club, and it's costing me $59 a month.  For that price I better be damn committed. 

I've decided here and now that it's time to claim my health back again.  It comes at a time where I am focusing on myself and the things that will only bring positivity into my life.  It comes at a time where I have just cancelled my wedding three months ago, and I am forced into figuring out who I am again and what role my life plays. 

Sure I've tried to lose weight before, but I was never committed.  I just did it because I thought that's what everyone else wanted for me and I wanted to make them happy.  But it's just me this time.  It's just my happiness and approval and pride on the line. 

I went to a class last week at the gym and at the end of the class the instructor came up to me and said "I hope this doesn't sound too forward, but you're really not that overweight.  If you keep it up you are going to look amazing in no time."  I laughed so hard and told her it's no secret I'm overweight, but that it really helped my confidence in hearing that.  She can see progress in me before I've even started.  Bring it on!

So I'm simply starting this blog up to keep myself accountable.  I am currently 209 on the scale and looking forward to seeing that number go down :)

Rambles

Why am I always thankful for the end of the day? Is my life really that stressful that I long for the end of the day to come? I think not.....what I really think is that I have gotten caught up in the American way of whining and complaining. We have it easy. I have it easy. And I should remember that. Did things go wrong today? Oh yes.....my car over heated AGAIN.

Me and my car.......OH, I'm not Kristen Bell?

When was someone going to tell me?

I did find this jewel today, and besides them only filling the Nutella side half way up, it was pretty darn delish. I will say that I was more bummed about being jipped out of my Nutella then I was about my car overheating. I think this tells you how my priorities in life go.

So all I'm getting at is my car overheating and my half filled Nutella is not the end of the world. I'm going to have things that happen everyday that are frustrating to me, and I shouldn't just wish those days to be over.

Komo Yay?

So it's been a couple months now since I was able to remove the boot from my oh
so lovely stress fracture. I have worked out here and there since having freedom
to do as I wish, but there is this reoccuring fear that the moment I go to run
or do anything physical my foot is just going to burst into pain......meaning
the verdict would once again be that awful, dirty, smelly boot. It gives me
chills just thinking about that ever happening again. Really the boot wasn't
that bad....but no one likes wearing hot black heel boots and one hospital boot
and suck. Really yanks the Fine factor right out beneath you. But like I said, I
have been doing things here and there. I have decided to start taking running
slow again....which means I'm back to the Couch to 5k program. This will have to
do for now, since taking all that time off really depleted my "lungs being able
to not completely fail on me" factor. Slow = better.....the sooner I realize
this, the better life will be.

On another note......I am heading to Haiti
in 2 weeks. I am so excited to go, but I honestly hate preparing to go places.
The packing and .....welll....packing....it just plain sucks. I wish I could
just write out a whole list of what I needed and pay someone to go buy it for me
and pack it all. Actually I'm sure I could pay someone to do that for me....that
would be easy.....but then my mind would be playing all these nasty tricks on me
making me think this person was trying to sabotage me by not packing everything
I need. What is wrong with me! Anyways, in order to get ready for this trip I
took a trip to the Doc today for my meds to go out of the country. I'm such a
procrastinator......but at least I got it done. I'll be honest, I wasn't even
planning on getting the meds they suggested....last time I went to Haiti no one
said I needed any meds. Needless to say my Doc wasn't too happy to find out I
went to Haiti without him knowing and without any meds and I got a whole speal
about Malariah and Hepatitis A from sleeping with Haitians. Hold up
Doc.....Homey don't play that game! Last I knew I was going to Haiti to play
with babies and get dirty in cement....not sleeping with Haitians.

Since my trip is coming up soon I have obviously been thinking about Haiti a lot and
the impact it has had on my life. The last time I went to Haiti was in 2009 when
I was in college. Going there and meeting all of the Haitians at that time in my
life really had a huge impact. I remember meeting a Haitian man and we were
talking and he would just keep asking me to teach him new English words. He was
so intent on learning everything I had to teach him. He just soaked it up.
Surprisingly he already knew a lot of English, as well as a lot of the other
Haitians I had met while I was there. That really struck me. A whole country
that is so desolate....most families live off a $1 a day. Yet they are so hungry
to learn more.....they soak up any knowledge they can. They live in a country
with hardly any resources, but yet they know a different language. But I live in
America, where I have so many resources at the tip of my fingers, but I sit here
only knowing English. What I'm really trying to say is......how can I have so
much available to me, and not take advantage of any of it. It sounds so annoying
to me.......like I am physically annoyed with myself. Well I'm off of
here......I've had a knot in my back since I woke up this morning causing me to
hardly be able to breath. So I will either get this knot out or take a sleeping
pill to knock me out.

Bonswa

Adorable, right?

My Haitian friend who loved learning new English

Roadblocks

Hey all!!

I know I know.....it's been forever. I will admit, blogging got to be a bit much for me. I don't think that I have the patience or motivation to get on here everyday, or even every other day to update others on what is going on in my life. But....I will use this today as my reason to vent for what has become a roadblock in my life.

Lets travel back to last week.....I was at the gym running when out of nowhere there was this intense pain on the left side of my left foot. I tried to ignore it, but in no time it brought me to my knees and I couldn't even walk. I had been going to the gym periodically every couple of days, but I haven't kept up with my running in the last month because work got a little crazy busy. So I was excited to get back into a running schedule. I tried to walk the next few days and found it near impossible, so I gave in and called the doctor. Turns out I have a STRESS FRACTURE...and will be in a boot for 8 WEEKS!!!! How is this even possible?? I didn't even do anything fun or cool to get this fracture.

So it seems that I have a new roadblock keeping me from running. It's always something it seems!!! I don't know whether to cry or laugh, but I know either way that it's not going to keep me out of the gym. I will be on a bike and doing weights...that is for sure!

Any advice out there about how to keep active when there is an injury involved????

Today is the day

Ok, today is finally the day where I have come to terms that it's time to change this lifestyle of mine. Every other time I have tried to attempt this change it was never based on a strong willpower. I don't know what has changed, but this time I feel a peace inside of me that I will be able to make this change and will successfully complete all of my goals set in front of me.

Today I found on Goals for the Week page the idea of making a collage to discover your inner athlete. I am definitely making one of these when I go home tonight. Obviously whatever I am focusing on has not been enough motivation for me to go out and get things done, so maybe this collage will be the motivation that I need.

I'm not going to focusing on running all the time. I have realized that when I just use running to try and get back into shape it doesn't work for me. I get bored. I get defeated. I want to be the best right away. So I need to keep looking for new workouts to keep me entertained and on track. If y'all have any ideas I would love to hear what they are!

Here's to getting back on track and trimming off these pounds!

Eat em up tigers, eat em up!

Hey guys!! It's been a while since I have posted anything. I have been

really busy with things....you know....with life :)

Last night I went to the Tigers game. They were playing the Mariners.

They are from Seattle in case you didn't know that. I didn't until someone

informed me of this yesterday.

The organization I work for gave me free tickets as long as I promised to donate

my time May 1st and go walk for their organization. Seems too easy. I kinda feel bad though.

I didn't realize that May 1st is a Sunday....so I won't be able to do the walk because I have to

work at my church. Still got the free tickets though.....SCORE!

Here I am, enjoying the game. Yes.....WAY UP THERE! And to think I would have

walked a million miles for these tickets. I PROMISE I'm not selfish....just lazy.

This is my coworker Niki and I. Ok, I claim her as a friend as well. She also

pledged to walk the miles for these free tickets.


I brought my friend Steve. And that is his little brother...as in Big Brothers
Big Sisters. Steve volunteers with them and that is the little guy they gave him.
He kept us pretty entertained throughout the night. He told me he's been dating his
girlfriend for 2 years.....so of course I'm curious how this ten year old met his girlfriend.
He then states that they had known each other for a few years and then started hooking up.
HOOKING UP???? Please explain to me why a ten year old is using the phrase hooking up?
He also told us how he loves his girlfriend because she has blond hair. He also told me how he
would like to turn the Tigers bat he bought into a canibal weapon. This things kids say.

Just a view of downtown detroit. We were supposed to get severe storms that night,
but luckily we stayed dry. It only rained for a matter of twenty seconds. PTL=Praise
The Lord!

I then came home to eat half the bag of this lovely. It's a mixture of dried

cranberries, dark chocolate, almonds, and raisins. It's my new love!

Survey

Hey y'all....I'm having a dilemma....and since I'm horrible at making decisions....I figured I would get everyones advice. 1. New car.....but have a car payment and full coverage insurance for years. 2. Save and get a used car and have no payment for years to come. Please help me figure out this dilemma!!!